When I was 19 years old I had my first spiritual experience in Overeaters Anonymous, where I met God through practicing the 12 steps in an effort to overcome food addiction.

The experience was profound. I felt expansive, loved and freedom beyond anything from my earlier life. This not only took away my cravings to binge eat, but it led me on a mission to understand the truth, joy and calm that I felt so strongly that day.

For the past 35 years I have rigorously studied multiple religions, philosophies and new age practices in a search to recreate that feeling.

A short list of my studies includes: Buddhism, Advaita-Vedanta, Yogic teachings, A Course in Miracles, “The Sophia Code,” Ascended master teachings, Kabbalah, Shamanism and New thought mysticism.

While most of my peers were having families or working their way up the career ladder, I was studying with gurus, becoming a yoga teacher, and learning astrology. I also became a Transpersonal Psychologist and a Holistic RN: All in my search for healing and truth.

Yet there was never a spiritual practice that could fill the hole in my soul.

No esoteric teaching, Goddess or Channeled book ever brought me steady power, security or calm.

Instead my life consisted of radical ups and downs, confusion and my pushing to make things happen on my own.

In 2017 I joined Miraval Resort in Tucson, AZ, as their “Integrative Wellness Expert.” I was teaching classes, leading groups and meeting with guests for private consultations. It was a dream job that made me feel special. It felt good to use my God-given gifts, but I was hungry for something that no level of success could bring.

I left Miraval and created a successful Spiritual Life Coaching practice that included Mind, Body & Spirit solutions to life’s problems.

This included teaching my belief that all we needed to do was develop our “inner sovereignty” — that if we meditated enough, changed our mindset and raised our vibration, then we could have a life of power and peace.

Yet, in the summer of 2023, I had to admit to myself something was seriously wrong. I had a daily new age practice and everything else that I thought I wanted — a thriving business with clients I adored, a popular YouTube channel with over 10K subscribers and the ability to travel and live anywhere I wanted while working from home.

I had it all.

On a morning in Oct. 2023, I sat at my altar with my journal, crystals and tarot cards like I had every morning for years, and the veils dropped from my eyes. I could suddenly see the truth in front of me…

It was dead. It was counterfeit. It left me feeling dry. I could never rest, I was always working on myself.

I had to admit that my life was deeply unstable with all the rituals I was doing to stay “positive” — trying to maintain feeling normal.

Meditations, breathwork, using tarot/oracle cards and doing astrology just to know if I was on the right path, and get guidance to try to feel happy and whole.

I was outwardly successful, but inside I was sad, confused and empty, despite the constant self-work I was doing!

But that morning in October I saw through the smoke and mirrors I’d used to hold myself up and keep myself together.

If I was completely honest, I had to admit that I was actually getting worse over the years, not better.

Enter God.

This time He revealed himself clearly. He was not “Christ consciousness.” He was an actual spiritual person with more love and power than I knew how to handle.

So I fell down.

I wept…

For weeks…

My heart was opened by his love.

He just kept loving me. He guided me, he showed me I didn’t have to perform anymore.

He had a purpose for me, and an everlasting love.

He has been healing me ever since, on multiple levels. Life just gets more stable, more joy-filled and more clear.

Now I have peace.

There are hard times, yet on the other side of every challenge, is more peace than before, more wisdom.

My life is balanced. I don’t have to push. I can rest in Him.

I enjoy healthy relationships with new people, and my family relationships are also healing.

Wherever you are on your own spiritual journey, I can help you take your life to the next level. I can help you discover your next steps, and to heal what might be in the way — removing what holds you back.

If you are ready to get unstuck by discovering how to live your best life with God’s love, power and peace, book a call with me, and we can talk about your goals.